Hi guys! How are you?
I don’t know even how to start this conversation but I will try my best I promise. First I want to say sorry for no activity on my blog yesterday but there is a reason for why I didn’t reblog or post anything yesterday.
I’m a very sentimental person sometimes and I can really take thing to myself when I see someone suffering in somehow. I have told you guys before that I have a job where I go 3 times a week and I love go to work and meet people. I always use to go the same way as and close to my job it is a big parking where people use to park their cars so they can come into the shopping centre and shop.
For a few weeks ago a guy began to sit on the ground on this parking and I didn’t think so much about him when I saw him the first time, I just think that it was someone just sitting there looking at people. The second day I realised that this guy was sitting there again and I looked in his eyes and I could see the sadness. The third day I realised that he had a small paper cup and he was begging for some coins.
To be honest I’m very sceptical regarding giving money to people on the street because I have heard so many buzzer stories how people can use other peoples kindness. I prefer to buy food or drink if they need so. For two weeks ago I bought him a drink and I could see in his eyes how happy he was and I also felt good to have done something nice for someone. Then the next week came and I started to go in another way because I knew I would see the guy there again and I would be sad. You my ask why? I don’t have the answer I just get sad when I see people having a bad life, every person should have a life of dignity. I don’t say that everybody should be rich but at least have a place to live and a job to go to. I didn’t see the guy the whole week last week and I think his noticed that I had changed my route.
Yesterday was my first day at work this week and I went the other way because I felt bad that I didn’t have anything to give him. As a big surprise he was sitting on the other side and he realised that I had changed my route to don’t see him or maybe it was only in my head. I felt so bad with myself and when I came home and I was in a very bad mood and irritated with myself because of my attitude. I started to think if it was me finding myself in this situation and how I would feel? I think I would be happy if someone just gave me a smile but I just choose to close my eyes and act as he wasn’t there at all. I wish I was rich so that I could help a few people in need. I know that I cannot change the entire world but at least I can do something for one person so there will be one less suffering in this world.
Life is not fair sometimes and it makes me so sad. Today I just wanted to be grateful for everything that I have and I don’t want to complain about life, it could have been so much worse. I’m sorry for telling you my sorrows about yesterday, but I’m human and I can be sad sometimes and that makes me a human as everybody else. I could just fake and write a happy post to you, but I choose to be transparent and show that I also can have a bad day sometimes and that is ok. I’m sure that today will be a better day.